Things you don’t understand
It’s been 10 weeks of lockdown, where our movements have been curtailed to try to slow the spread of the novel coronavirus covid19. I’ve gone through several stages, from frustration through depression to indifference. Frankly, I cycle through them so that there are days (or hours) when I feel optimistic, to be followed by a crash and a sinking depression that sucks all of my joy. I’ve had recommendations to document this period, so that I and others can look back on it and remember what it was like living through this pivotal period. Every time I started, though, the waves of sadness would just wash out my ability to write, or think or share. I can say that the things that stand out most from the last 3 months are the following. Bear in mind that I’ve edited them, just because I need this to be able to cope with life, so the worst of it is omitted. Days bleed into one another. If not for my iPad, I wouldn’t know Monday from Friday. Weekends are meaningless— but they were be